Christians rightly celebrate the truth that God offers forgiveness through the sacrifice of Christ. The Bible teaches that moral failure does not require us to earn pardon from God. (See Titus 3:5.) The clear promise is that if we acknowledge our wrongdoing and ask for God’s pardon, he will grant it. (See 1 John 1:9.)
Unfortunately, there is a tendency to presume on God’s generosity. We can reason that we may violate his moral commands with impunity because he will forgive us in the future when we repent and seek reconciliation. The New Testament argues that the availability of pardon does not justify the decision to disobey. In Romans 6:1-2, for example, Paul rails against those who maintain that an increase in sin produces an increase in God’s demonstration of grace, and is therefore a good thing. Even so, we face the common temptation to rationalize our sinful choices on the grounds that we can confess in the future and find forgiveness.
Forgiveness relates to true moral guilt. It does not assure us that our relationship with God will not be damaged by our sinful choice. Choices have consequences, even in the way we relate to God himself. This principle is reflected in 1 Chronicles 17:13, where God speaks with David. He describes the kingdom that he will establish through David and his descendents. God expresses the possibilities for generations of blessing through David and his posterity. In the course of this revelation, God says, “I will be his [Solomon's] father, and he shall be My son; and I will not take My lovingkindness away from him, as I took it from him who was before you [Saul].”
This is a chilling statement. It reminds us that Saul’s once-intimate relationship with God was damaged to the point that God permanently withdrew his lovingkindness from Saul. Something changed in Saul’s relationship with God that would never be regained during the remainder of his natural life. He lost the kingdom, but I suspect something deeper is in mind here. At some point Saul reached a place where God’s chesed (goodness, kindness) was no longer available to him. It was gone for good.
I don’t know at what moment this change took place, but it is a warning to me about rationalizing my own rebellion in light of God’s promise of forgiveness. The forgiveness is real, but it does not guarantee that the relationship will remain the same. It can change. And that change can put me in a place that is not as desirable as where I might be right now.